Friday, August 08, 2008
i really can't afford to have any distractions right now.
School has started, and i may be, possibly, overloading this semester. Just by 1 AU (25 in total), but thats enough to pack my 5-day week in school. GPA needs to go up too.
On top of that, there's guitar. Two years to prepare for auditions doesn't leave me with much time.
Then there's guitar lessons and tuition to give. My kids are too adorable for me to give them up. ya la maternal instincts kicking in. And i need the moolah.
Church commitments and ministry take up half my weekends.
i dont even have time to run as much as id like to, or to spend enough time with dear friends.
Much as it pains me, something's got to give. Now's really not the best time. i dont know how long either of us can wait. But i also know the underlying issue's not the time factor.
im not complaining, really. im typing all this out for clarity. In attempt to make sense of all that's happened. Something happened yesterday that caught me off-guard. But instead of turning to God straightaway like i should, i instinctively turned to the people around me for comfort and assurance.
Not that that's wrong. But sometimes, this just adds to the complication.
it leads me to question where do i really place my security and trust in.
Psalm 121:1-2
"I will lift up my eyes to the hills-
From whence comes my help?
My help comes from the Lord,
Who made heaven and earth."This picture was taken in Japan, along the long winding paths to the ASO volcano ( supposedly the largest volcano in the world.) I love nature. i could spend hours immersing myself in it. When i look at the vastness of the horizon, the untainted landscape of greenery, the tall mountains, i cant help but stop and marvel at the splendour of God's creation.
i need to be still and know that you are God.
reina ♥
8/08/2008 11:35:00 AM
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